What am I doing?

Being a stay at home mom has been an eye opening experience. I thought my house would always be spotless, everything organized, fancy dinners, well-kept and well-behaved children, very little stress and free time galore. Was I in for a rude awakening or what? My house looks like a bomb has gone off. Toys everywhere, even though they were just picked up. As I type away my children are sweeping and mopping the floors, walls, and probably soon breaking something with the flying broom handle. Bless their hearts, they do try. I have no idea where anything is anymore. I know that if I could get it all organized, I think I could keep it that way. I just have way too much help trying to get it together, and not the kind of help I need. I still fix the easier thing I can get my hands on. I do try more new recipes, but they have to be easy. I am just plain worn out by the end of the day. My kids are...kids. Grayson gets more food on himself than in his mouth and Sydney somehow gets more ink and paint on herself than the paper. All their clothes look like they have never seen a washing machine and they do all the time. Sydney gets more time outs and spankings for arguing and talking back than anyone child. You think she would get the picture by now, but no such luck. Grayson's time is coming. He just is into everything and demands it now. I am stressed out and have no time to myself. I mean I don't even get to go to the bathroom without an audience. Despite all the craziness, I love being at home with my kids. I know this is where I belong. I guess it just takes time to get it all together. Any suggestions on making my life easier would be great. I am willing to take any and all advice. Say a prayer for me, I am losing my mind...that is, when I get the chance.